Calculation !!!

Nothing much to blog actually.. kinda stress about wedding preparations.. have booked almost evrytin, except for video man.. d rest, insya'Allah gon b fine.. juz booked ma deco dis noon.. all quotations are in hand.. left only berkat and card.. dat can wait a while more.. did ma calculation at work.. gosh gosh gosh.! makin nak save cost, amacam leh ter "up" cost plak eh? haiz... now i feel dat i need a part time job!!!! after calculating most of it, i do still have my savings after ma wedding, but still, i want more!! lantak ah korang nak ckp apa.. duit aku pe! kerja pun aku! biar aku hidup senang lepas kawin, taknak hutang hutang! FAHAM? tak faham, sudah!

hmmm.. next, gon b busy wid all d appointments... businesswoman pun tak mcm aku! but its oklah tho, its gonna be worth it all... insya'Allah...

k, out for now.. wanna watch my chinese drama!! oh Tay Ping Hui!!! *meltz*

KuRsUs RuMahTaNgGa...

heeee... went for our kursus rumahtangga yesterday and today.. i noe its kinda early for us to go.. but nak ada kaki nya pasal, dats y! we went wid aisyah n karim.. the location is at masjid kampung siglap..

ive learnt or indeed we've learnt alot of things thru dis course!! super alot!! for which it will be damn helpful to us throughout our marriage life.. the trainers are so fun dat der are no chances for us to even doze off in class.. but baby did tho.. haha!! on d 1st day! but kejap je.. i was like staring at him n he saw, terus tak tetdo lagi!

dun be so confident telling urself dat u have rili noe ur partner in n out.. thru dis course, i found out der are stil some factors dat i dunno abt ma fiance.. be it positive or negative..same goes for him.. n in dis course oso we have the chance to BOMBARD dem wid wadeva we feel!! mostly its all about feelings and wad we need n want from dem! we even debate! the students in dis klas sume kecoh!! tdats d reason y the 2 days aint boring..

with this course, i rili hope we will change for d betta.. for d good n benefit for the future family dat we gon have.. Insya'Allah...

Here are some photos taken during the course...

* We've graduated from the course!! A certificate earned!! Yeah!! *

H.A.P.P.I.N.E.S.S

HAPPINESS. Do we need to work for it?? Or Do we need it from someone else?
For all ma life I’ve lived, I have neva asked for anytin.. not money.. not car.. not house.. not to anything at all..at times, not even LOVE! I dun care wad oders have dat I dun.. cuz all I want is HAPPINESS! Is it too much to ask for?!

Instead of getting dis lil thing I asked for, HURT, DISAPPOINTMENT is wad I oways get in return.. yes I admit! Sumtimes im too selfish cuz I want tings in ma own way in order to get d happiness dat I want. BUT if you cant give me dat, den u dun nid to HURT me.. saying NO to wad I want, giving oder alternatives n explain y, is enuf for me..

N I tink I shall not be dependent to anyone at all from now.. I have to stop dat.. even to ma family.. I dowan to mengharap.. cuz it’ll hurt me more.. People juz dun undastan me juz like how I dun undastan dem.. as a result, I will ask for me to be alone.. I need ma own space.. dats wer I will cry hard.. im only human.. n a woman at dat! Who’s heart is so fragile.. I wish I could juz run far away!! Away from everyone dat I noe! Living ma own life wer I dun nid to care abt people’s feelings, n dey dun nid to give a shit to ma life n feelings! How I wish I could….

Wadeva it is, im thankful for all who have bin der for me.. people who make me luff, I owe u peeps a big time! Those who tink dey can make me happy by NOT asking for anytin in return, please stay by my side.. I need u throughout ma life.. Thank you…


*Am I askin for too much? Am I too difficult to undastan?*

Suuuwit!

Baby's been so sweet to me la these days.. tho i admit, we kip quarrelling ova little little tings.. orang tua2 ckp, ni sume dugaan.. lagi2 bila hari hari da nak dekat kawin.. n i gez its true.. yday nite before goin to bed.. he msg me dis.. " b, go slip k..gd nite..love u oways no matter how much i hurt u everyday, i know.. miz u.. mmmuah!"
suuuuwit kan!! *faint*

kinda noting much to blog today.. i log in cuz ma hair is stil wet, baru mandi.. n i can still smell d rebonding cream up til today! pffft! juz now, was trying on suitable top for dis weekends to go kursus.. trying to match wid d black n white tudung dat i bought..i could only match a top wid d black tudung.. couldnt find d right top to go wid d white tudung..da bingit, i kal baby! ajak gi mustafa la! cuz i wanna find d punjabi kinda top, den can wear wid pants.. baby say go tmr.. he dun like jalan kelam kabut, susah nak cari benda.. so we goin tmr!

now, i wanna play word challenge in facebook while waiting for ma hair to dry.. den go to slip...n people... its TGIF tomorrow!!!!

....Baby.. have faith in me k.. :)

My Tuesday

"B..go slip k..btw, u look nice with ur new hair..gd nite b.. i will always love u n ders no one else who can replace u in ma life. sori for wad had happen..mmuah!"
heee... baby msg me dat last nite.. sweet kan!!! i noe.. ;) n dats d reason y i lurve him.. partly d reason la kan.. for d new hair thingy, yeah.. i rebond.. agen! tot of curls, but malas nak maintain.. so rebond la.. da rebond plak, tau2 jelah.. frizzy at d ends! part ni aku malas!! arrgh! juz trim a lil...

i was so busy at work today!! kip runnin here n der! mana asik gi toilet! was having d runs! gggrrr!! at ard 5, i stopped wadeva im doin! otak da shut down! i put everything aside to tomorrow! n tomorrow can wait! haha...
went gym aft work wid ma maknenek.. did our usual stuffs at d gym.. merepek tu standard.. wen der's hetty n me.. ders oways merepek! oh den otw back, we saw dis pushcart, selling d ceramic curler like kak linah's!! oh God!! me n hetty tried on it.. super good la!! even d straightener iron is damn good! we can iron our hair even wen it is wet!! gosh! d salesgirl is selling it to us for $290 per set, meaning d straightener n d curler..! its a gd deal ah for me.. cuz initially the curler itself costs $160 and the straightener costs $199.. "tempted to touch.. tempted to touch.. i wana hold u so much!" haha!

b... i nak! boleh?!belikan?! masuk kan untuk dulang hantaran pun takpe! i tak kisah! hari2 i tukar rambut utk u.. u nak curls? nak straight?! i can do it for u!! :P heee... k, seriously.. its so tempting.. if only la kan.. i can afford to spend a lil bit more despite saving for ma big day.. i will buy la! leh suro mak andam aku pakai skali to set ma hair later! pfffft!

klah.. let me juz dream abt it later in ma sleep... n pls pls pls.. hope tomorrow will be better day at work den today...


* I lurve u Mohammad Riduan..*

Bbq @ ECP

super MONDAY BLUES i had today... aft lunch, i suddenly have dis headache! mcm heart attack gitu! wah! i cant take it la! its spinning.. maybe due to lack of sleep last nite.. i slept at 3 ok!! grrrrr!!! den kinda alot of work.. til i dunno wer to start...

went to ECP at ard 8.. baby's ex team in airport had dis bbq specially for him n d oders who have left d team.. d same hari raya clan except dat the chinese are der oso for tonite.. talked, joked, had our "mini" k-nite session.. den apa lagi.. mkn je la.. but i din eat much tho.. had ma dinner before i went out..

i juz reached home at 11.45 juz now.. baby is now on his way tolong hantar his frens at yishun.. n me?? goin to have ma beautiful sleep pretty soon before ma headache starts agen!!

Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me!

Ma New Blog..

hola people!!!! welcome to ma new blog!! gosh! im like so happy promoting it! oh wells!! *chuckles*.. widda help of ma bestest cuzzie, indah.. she helped me wid all dis.. like i told u in ma previous blog at lynniwan.blog.friendster.com.. im sucha slowpoke wen it comes to all dis thingy... but i MADE it!! so please welcome ma humble blog.. *applause*..

k k da da.. im tired oreadi... tomorrow working.. monday blues people! n im gon damn bz dis few days as alot of people is on study and exam leave...

nanitez peeps...